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Chapter 0213
Fuck. This was hard. I wanted to stop, but now more than ever, I knew they wouldn’t let
me.
“Like I said, things were going well for some time. They weren’t perfect, but they were
bearable. That is, had given birth to a baby boy and that Rowan fell until the night mom
called me to let me know that Aus in love with his son at first sight. Everything around me
crumbled, and all the pain I’d been hiding came to the surface.” I try to breathe through
the pain of the memories, but it was so F***ing hard.
“I was in pain, and I was really angry. Angry at myself for turning down Rowan’s proposal,
angry at Rowan for getting drunk and sleeping with Ava, angry at Ava for getting pregnant
and marrying the man I loved and angry at the baby for being born.”
I hear a sharp intake of air. I don’t need to turn to know that it is from Rowan, I still
Follow on NovᴇlEnglish.nᴇtstruggle with being around Noah because if everything had gone the way I wanted it to,
then he would have been mine and
Rowan’s child instead of his and Ava’s.
“I wanted to punish Rowan. To hurt him like he hurt me. I knew he always disliked Calvin
for the way he crushed on me, so that night I approached Calvin and seduced him. I knew
word would probably get back to Rowan, and that would have hurt him. That’s why I slept
with Calvin that night, because I counted on Rowan’s friend telling him. He would have
been so hurt, I would have gotten my revenge, and maybe then
it would no longer hurt as much.”
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I don’t tell them, but it’s also how I lost my virginity. I was saving it for Rowan and in the
end I gave it to the guy who kept fighting for me to love him.
“I regretted it the next morning. It had been foolish of me to sleep with a guy I didn’t even
like just to get
back at the man I loved. I told Calvin that it was a mistake and that he should forget about
what
happened between us. I snuck out of his room, and I thought that was that. That it was a
terrible one–night
stand and that would be the end of it.”
Fuck had I been wrong. I hadn’t planned for what was to come next. What destiny had
planned for us.
“We went back to ignoring each other like the other didn’t exist, that is, until my period
was late. A cheap.
test, and later, a doctor’s appointment confirmed that I was pregnant.”
It had been the worst news I’ve ever received. Deep in my heart, I believed that one day
Rowan and I would get back together. I didn’t want an unwanted baby to hinder that. I
Follow on Novᴇl-Onlinᴇ.cᴏmdidn’t want the consequences of my mistake to always be in my face.
“Why didn’t you get an emergency pill the morning after?” mom asks, making me blush a
little.
“Apart from being a complete mess, everything was new to me. To put it plainly, I was
naive. It was the-
that wasn’t really enough to get me pregnant. Looking back, maybe if I’d told Molly, she
would have advised me to get one, but like I said, I was so ashamed, I didn’t want anyone
to know.”
“You want to tell me that during all the years you dated Rowan, you never slept together?
You were still a virgin?” Travis asks in disbelief. *
I knew
ew Rowan wasn’t. Before we started dating, which was at seventeen, he’d previously been
sleeping with anything that walked and had a vagina. When I’d told him I wasn’t ready, he
understood. We planned to wait till I was ready. My biggest regret was holding out on him.
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